To My Beautiful Angel

Only days left

Until I hold her in my arms

Until I breathe deeply the scent of her heavenly aroma

Until I kiss her tiny mouth

And touch her unbelievably soft skin

When I see her face

I will feel such joy

Such wonder

Such love and gratitude and awe

At her beauty and at His goodness

And I will take a moment

And I will think of you

And what you mean to me

And how much I crave these simple pleasures

Of your birth into this world

I will whisper that I love you

And that I wish you were here

And I will mourn this time with you that I was not given

These precious seconds of introduction

Between mother and child

But I will rejoice in the birth of your sister

I will always admire you for going on ahead

So that she could be

For while her purpose is here on earth

Yours was in heaven

As she grows and lives and loves

I will love her with everything in me

But I will never forget you

I will never stop missing you

I will never stop dreaming of the day

That I see you there

In a place that is perfect

A place where you never have to hurt or cry

A place that you were created for, designed for, chosen for

That first time I hold her in my arms

I will breathe deeply

The scent of her heavenly aroma

And I will feel you in that breath

In that God-kissed second

Of passage between eternity and earth

And I will take a moment

And I will think of you

And what you mean to me

I love you.